Just Me

I think it is common knowledge that I do not update this blog very often. But when I do I have a few important things on my mind. For those of you that don't know I moved back home in March of 2018 and took a job as a bank teller at Tri County Bank and Trust. I absolutely love it. However moving back home meant leaving my close friends I had made while living in Terre Haute, it also meant leaving my boyfriend at the time, Dan. He was a very special part of my life and I really did love him and his family, it just wasn't meant to be. Moving home and going through a breakup was a lot to juggle. But I got through it okay. Later in 2018 I was in a play. It was such a great experience and I truly enjoyed it. During that time I became very close with someone who I had known my entire life. I know it sounds crazy but I felt as though God pushed me in the direction to move home because of this person. The more we talked and hung out the more I fell for him. Feelings I had felt for th

In my 29 years of life I’ve had several dreams, many of them changed and evolved over the years, but there has always been one dream that has stayed constant. And that is to get married and have a family. I’m to the point in my life where most of my friends have it and I’m so happy for them all and I love their children. I so badly want to be a mom that it sometimes physically pains me that dream hasn’t come true yet. I know God has a plan for me and I just so badly want it to be that I will be a mom one day, sooner rather than later.

Today timehop reminded me that I met someone 8 years ago. The moment I met him I knew he was going to be a part of my life and we became fast friends he was my best friend. Eventually I ended up falling in love with him of course he didn’t feel the same way but it never changed our friendship. I genuinely thought we would be friends forever our friendship was so special. He ended up moving out of state and it sucked but we still talked almost every single day it was great until one day it wasn’t. I was still in love with him and decided I couldn’t keep doing that because it was just killing me. But I got to where I was able to be just friends and we continued staying in touch. Everything was fine until it just wasn’t. I don’t know what happened but it’s been nearly 2 years since I saw him last, he doesn’t respond to me anymore, nothing, at all. I’m not going to lie it kills me almost everyday because he was my best friend even after all the shit, but now I almost wish that I never even

October 16th to most this date is just like any other, just another day. But for others their lives changed forever 6 years ago, including mine. 6 years ago we lost an incredible racer, husband, father, son, brother, and champion. 6 years ago we lost the best friend we will ever know. 6 years ago we lost. We lost Dan Wheldon. Some things will never be the same, sure we still go racing but the paddock will never be the same.. there was a spark in Dan and he just brought such charisma, talent, drive and friendliness  to the paddock that I don’t know if we’ll ever see again. But I do know if we live our lives with just an ounce of how Dan lived his, the world will truly be a better place. This day will always be a reminder that you are no longer here. For 6 years we have all felt that constant void in our hearts, a void that will never be replaced, because you simply can not replace Dan Wheldon. There will never be another like you. Thank you for always watching down on us and protectin

The world lost a wonderful man today. Terry Feltner has passed away. Terry meant so much to my family and I. He was one of the most selfless men I knew, he'd do anything for anyone no questions asked. So many childhood memories involve him. From spending the night on Christmas Eve helping my dad put together gifts from Santa to random drop in visits, those were the best.  Bailey and I loved him. You are missed by so many people already. I loved hearing stories of fun times him and my parents had. My favorite is the motorcycle story! Oh I'd laugh every time I heard it. The only thing that's making this easier is knowing he's no longer in pain. We love you man and we miss you so much!

Hey everyone! I'm not sure if anyone ever reads this but I'm sorry I haven't posted in a long while. All I really have is my phone unless I'm on my sisters computer. Both of my laptops have bit the dust and I don't have wifi or internet at my apartment for that matter so blogging has become rather difficult. I really wanted to keep on on this so I apologize. Hopefully in the next year or so I can get a laptop, but I'm not holding my breath I really need to save my money for a vehicle instead, so we'll see how that goes. Anyways, I hope everyone is doing well.