Just Me

In my 29 years of life I’ve had several dreams, many of them changed and evolved over the years, but there has always been one dream that has stayed constant. And that is to get married and have a family. I’m to the point in my life where most of my friends have it and I’m so happy for them all and I love their children. I so badly want to be a mom that it sometimes physically pains me that dream hasn’t come true yet. I know God has a plan for me and I just so badly want it to be that I will be a mom one day, sooner rather than later.

Today timehop reminded me that I met someone 8 years ago. The moment I met him I knew he was going to be a part of my life and we became fast friends he was my best friend. Eventually I ended up falling in love with him of course he didn’t feel the same way but it never changed our friendship. I genuinely thought we would be friends forever our friendship was so special. He ended up moving out of state and it sucked but we still talked almost every single day it was great until one day it wasn’t. I was still in love with him and decided I couldn’t keep doing that because it was just killing me. But I got to where I was able to be just friends and we continued staying in touch. Everything was fine until it just wasn’t. I don’t know what happened but it’s been nearly 2 years since I saw him last, he doesn’t respond to me anymore, nothing, at all. I’m not going to lie it kills me almost everyday because he was my best friend even after all the shit, but now I almost wish that I never even